Why I’m Here
Why am I so reluctant to go?
What makes me stay on this way?
If I were in good health, I’d know
But now, like this,
I dread every day
Monotony pours coals on the pain
Depression is a fire’
It seems the more I fan out the flame
I question my desire
Could it be the love I feel from my friends
And the pull from family?
Or have I left something undone
That holds me secretly?
Whatever it is, it’s got to give
I’m sick of misery
I know it may land me a berth down below
But there’s something else I’ve got to give
And that’s why I’ve still got to live
To return the love back to my friends
Is reason enough to stay
All they ever wanted from me
Was for me to come out and play
My family has many more needs
Still waiting to be fulfilled
I’m sorry to say I walked away
And much of their love I have killed
The same is true for a lover or two,
A daughter and two wives
Unfinished business .like this is the glue
That sticks us to our lives
If I could I would mend it all in a day
For the rest of my life, I’ll try
Maybe then, if I’m successful at this
I’ll no longer need to
But most likely will have to
Give thanks for my life
And die.
C 2010 David Brunoehler
